It’s A Crappy Life

You know how some stuff can just happen one day and all that you believe can be turned upside down?  It was really complicating to me myself.  I hadn’t really grasped it yet.  All I have to say is I’m very sorry, JW for doubting you.  Now that all is clear… I don’t even know whether I should rejoice or be in even more deep shit.  Whatever it is, I hope it’s gonna sort itself out soon enough.

I’m only writing this to justify the previous entry which was written in a spur of a moment.  I’m crossing my fingers that stuff will turn up well.  And don’t worry, JW, I will keep my promise. 

If I had written this a few hours back, it would have been a "hate" entry.  But then again, I figured, it wouldn’t be worth the energy and breathe to rant about some ungrateful people.  So… Ya… this is just a short thing coz I have planned to write something tonight.  And I don’t like to not do something that I’ve planned.  Have a nice day!

Went to above said place on Saturday that day.  Phew~ What a day! Was there since 12 and waited for more than an hour for our three other shopping king and queens to come.  Any other place, I’m happy to shop alone.  But Sg Wang? On a weekend somemore?! I look like a lonely dungu in a sea of people who are at least in pairs.

But finally, they did arrive.  Apparently the cab driver could not differentiate between Mid Valley and Sungei Wang.  Sigh…

So, the first thing we did once they arrived was of course, EAT!  They are pigs afterall… Hehe… So we went to this place with a magic theme.  The waiters and waitresses were dressed in Harry Potter costume.  On other circumstances, I would have thought the place was damn lame and pass it.  But then again, there was this real cute waitress at the entrance serving customers and I thought… Oh well!

Haha.  We really wanted to take a pic with her, but unfortunately, she was busy waiting other tables when we left that we had to leave in disappointment.  Or was I the only one who’s disappointed?  Haha.  There was this other waitress who was with us when we were waiting for the cute waitress.  She’s cute too, but I want the other one.  LOL.  I’m such a perv.

My 2.0mp camera proved superior to Ah Be’s Cybershot.  Haha.  Anyway, to those who don’t know, the leng lui on the left is Joanna and that guy is Ah Be.

This Tomato Drink looks nice, but in fact, it tastes AWful.  I wonder how Ah Be can tahan drinking this… Do you know it actually costs 9 bux for something like this?

My lunch! Looks nice ya? It’s not bad actually for something that cost almost 20 bux!!!

Anyway, after shopping for like hours, I finally got myself 3 shirts, 1 cargo long pants and 1 belt.  You know, I suddenly have developed this obsession for belts.  I’ve got my first belt from Michelle from UK - or at least that’s where I thought she’d bought it.  And I’ve been buying and looking at belts ever since.  There’s one from Body Glove.  I got another when I was in Suzhou, China.  Now I have my fourth one from Tropicana Life.  It’s real nice.

So the total cost of my expenditure of the day (including two books from MPH, being the bookworm that I am) was about 400 bux.  (Did I mention that lunch was really expensive?) 400bux! Add another hundred to it, and I’ll get a PS2!!!

Woo Hoo! My ‘zhan li pin’!!! After 3 hours of shopping… LOL!

Anyway, it’s the shopping that counts ain’t it?  I’ve never spent so carefree-ly for so long - if not forever.  Coz Dad gave me 200 bux without knowing that I’ve already got 300 from my ATM earlier.  Haha.  I wasn’t saying anything when he handed me the cash.

So… I shall be looking forward to this year’s CNY so that I can wear my new stuff and get the Ang Pows to replenish my MONNNEEEYYY!!!

Two days ago was supposed to be a very important day.  Last year on that very same day was the happiest day of my life.  3.00pm, 21st January 2006. 

I’m sure I don’t have to say anything and you’d have guessed.  So, two days ago was supposed to be our first anniversary.  But who would have guessed when we first started last year that we would end so soon?

Haha… I shouldn’t have talk about this topic anymore.  It’s a bore isn’t it?  It’s like most of my entries are full of this topic.  What a pain in the @rse.

I wanted to blog about my shopping day on Sg Wang actually.  Spent a whopping 400 in less than half a day.  But… I’ve not get out of the lazy mode and start uploading the pics yet.  So… haha… be patient everyone.

I shall be out of lazy mode soon coz I have heaps to be done.  There’re assignments, exams and research project.  Ms Tan and Ms Yap were really crazy.  How to find 50 journals in two weeks?!

You know, when they say that, it’s really true.  That’s why sometimes - or rather most of the times - I chose to ignore when I’m soooo close to knowing what’s going on in JW’s life. 

But sometimes, you know how the curiousity tortures your mind?  It’s like you knew half and had a hint of what’s going on but you don’t know the whole truth.  So your head start spinning stories.  Good ones, bad ones and really ugly ones.  None of them are welcomed to me.  The bad and ugly ones as their name implied are bad and ugly.  The good one… Well, it’ll start giving me hope and that’s the last thing that I need.

But still, after finding out the whole truth today, surprisingly, I wasn’t feeling bitter.  Well, perhaps a bit when I found out that the target is in KL this moment.  But then, I wasn’t the least concerned when I found out that JW is not so single anymore.  And the fact that an accident had occured… well, I really surprised myself for not feeling worried at all. 

Still, there’s this nagging thing in my mind that keep coming on and off.  During the Break Up, I remembered I said very clearly that we should quit contacting each other because I don’t wanna hate anyone when JW gets a boyfriend in the future.  The reply was kinda ridiculous: "I’ll stay single…"

RIGHT!

If you could, I would have been single ever since after Michelle and not go into all those crap that I’ve gone through with the other "accidental" people I had been with. 

Sigh.  Right now, I don’t feel the heart wrenching and I am not thinking anymore.  But I know it will come again later. 

You must be wondering why this sudden ranting again after so long.  It’s because the evil KY planted ideas in my head last nite before I went to sleep.  And it sucks because when I woke up this morning, I can’t do my usual "lying on the bed and doing nothing" stuff.  My mind was practically spinning with possibilities that were infinite like it used to happened the few weeks after the Break Up.  So I ended up sleeping at 2 something last nite and woke up before 9. 

I hate to think!  ARGH!!! Sometimes I do wonder why the hell are we born with emotions and the ability to think?! 

Crap.  I really hope this will end soon.  The whole thing with JW, not only this recent episode.  I don’t wanna hang on to this one person for so long.  It’s been long overdue

Reminded me of a quote from the movie Win a Date with Tad Hamilton.

There is Small Love, Big Love and Great Love.  Small love, you get over in a couple of months, big love maybe in two years.  But Great Love… It changes you.

Then that lady who says it will look at the guy and say "Oh no… it’s great love, isn’t it?"

Haha.  I don’t know how to classify mine.  But it is definitely life changing and I didn’t get over it in a couple of months.  Sigh… love sux.  BIG time!

It’s true!!!

I was driving along Bandar Tun Razak when I suddenly turned to look at the car beside me.  I don’t know why, but somehow I did and I saw this malay guy looking and grinning at me.  It’s not the "there-is-something-funny-on-your-car" kinda grin.  It’s more like the "you’re-cute" kinda look that even I sometimes use on girls.

It’s creepy.  Very creepy. 

So I tried to overtake it and he somehow managed to catch up flashing that stupid grin again.  God damn it!  I was being hit on by a guy and I don’t even know whether I’m feeling mad or nervous. 

But thank god, I had excellent driving skills and I losed the gay ass at a traffic light.  My god!  Do I look gay?!  Reminded me of this episode in FRIENDS where everyone said Chandler was gay.  Haha.  Do I have that "quality"?

Moving on, I’d wanted to go Genting the week after next.  It’s been a long time since I’ve been there.  With friends, that is.  The previous time I was there I met JW for the first time.  Now, that’s a very very long time ago. 

So, now I wanna go again.  And you all know there’s someone at home that I have to get through.  I tried asking just now and after that, I began to wonder, "Why did I even bother to ask?" 

Well, I’m sure you can pretty much guess what the answer was.  I totally give up.  It’s hopeless trying to ask.  You know, other ppl my age don’t even have to ASK anymore.  They just tell their parents and go.  But if I do that… Haha… I don’t even wanna think what the consequences are gonna be.  It’s kinda hard to believe that I’m gonna turn 21 this year.  I still felt like a rebellious teen all because of the all to controlling mother of mine.

Okay, I know this entry is a little too late.  I’ve watched the movie since almost a week ago and I’m only blogging about it now.  But then again, there were so many goings on these days right?

You know, the reason anyone ever bother to blog about a movie they’ve watched is either because the movie is darn good or hell bad.  Well, movie critics and bloggers who dedicate their blogs to movie reviews excepted. 

Anyway, in the case of Eragon, sadly, I’ll have to say it’s WAAAAAAAAYYYYYY disappointing.  It always happens isn’t it?  If I read the book first I’ll always end up feeling disappointed.  There was HP3 and now it’s Eragon.  Narnia was a bit disappointing too because of all the hype that blew it all up, but then again, I’ve not read C.S. Lewis in my entire life. 

I think the whole Narnia thing was probably because I was comparing it to LOTR.  You see, LOTR was the first fantasy genre movie that I’ve ever watched and I think it’s agreeable that it is also THE fantasy movie. 

And so, I’ve always imagined a similar type of directorship for Eragon whenever I read the book and dream of it being made into a movie.  Well, my dream came true but it was exactly the opposite of what I had expected it to be.

Probably the only similarity of the movie and my imagination is how Carvahall would look like.  And I have no comments on Sienna Guillory who played the elf Arya.  She is kinda hot, but a bit too short for my imagination.  And the fact that I compared her to Liz Tyler just wasn’t too fair ain’t it?  Somehow, I feel that Liz Tyler (Arwen in LOTR) has set the standard for future Elven Princesses after LOTR.

Anyways, the similarities just stopped there.  The most frustrating thing is that the movie was totally out of the chronology of events in the book.  For one thing, Eragon was 15 NOT 17 as mentioned in the movie.  And Saphira grew gradually.  If you were to follow her growth curve (forgive the Microbiology me) you will see a exponential growth.  She did have a growth spurt, but it happened in months.  In the movie, little Saphira flew into the sky, got struck by lightning and then POOF!

Cute Little Saphira became HUGE ENORMOUS flying lizard.

How fake is that?

And Saphira’s wings are NOT feathered.  It’s supposed to be leathery like bats, not like birds.  That’s important because it signifies the weak part of a seemingly invulnerable beast.  If you have a pair of feathered wings, obviously arrows are just like sticks flying through leaves.  But if it’s a piece of thin membrane, it’s a different kind of story.

There were other expects of the movie that were so different that I really felt like I’m watching an entirely different story.  For example, Galbatorix was not even shown as a character in the story.  He doesn’t have any dialogue, only described.  In the movie, he’s not even ruthless.  His dialogues made him childish.  Seriously, if I’m Eragon, I would have given him a pacifier.

And then, Brom was soooooo not what I expected him to be like.  In the book, he’s this great war veteran who’s brave and all.  In the movie, he’s a CHICKEN!  And he’s not killed by Durza!  He’s killed by the Ra’zac!  And he don’t give Za’aroc to Eragon right before he died.  He gave it to him at the moment he met Saphira.  And Saphira never knew she can change his grave into a diamond tomb until she did it. 

Then, Murtagh, he had NEVER intended to go to the Varden.  In the movie, he was lapping at the Varden’s door like a dog.  And what happened to the Evil Twins in the Varden?  All I see is one old man who is sooooo good.  He doesn’t even seem the slightest bad.  And the dwarves?  Where are they?

And Ajihad did not recognize Murtagh by just LOOKING at him.  That’s soooo not logical even to those who didn’t read the book.  How can you recognize someone you’ve not even met?!  And by the way, Ajihad is NOT pronounced as AjiHAD.  It’s AJIHOD.  It’s shown at the back of the book.  That just shows how much the director loved the book. 

Farthen Dur is just not beautiful.  And Saphira never breathed fire until at the very end of the war.  In the battle with Durza, it was ERAGON who was almost mortally wounded, not SAPHIRA.  I now begin to wonder how they are gonna explain the torment of Eragon’s scar in the second movie when there’s not even one.  Is it gonna be Saphira’s scar instead?

I could have pointed out even more stuff but I don’t wanna sound even more like a whiner, which I already am.

Sigh.  I guess I’m expecting too much.  But if Peter Jackson can do such a good job on LOTR, why can’t the director of Eragon?  Directors that wanna do movie adaptations from books MUST love the books.  It wouldn’t work if the director is just filming it for the sake of money.  Like Eragon, it will just turn out to be a piece of chronologically mixed up crap even if dozens of Christopher Paolini’s are present at the set. 

I was reading MPH’s Quill magazine’s promotion about the film the other day.  I couldn’t agree more with the article’s final line:  Make sure you read the book before you catch the movie. 

Because if you don’t, you wouldn’t even wanna look at the book cover.