It’s A Crappy Life

I really don’t like to be framed for something I’ve not done… I told myself to ignore it but I can’t.  It just bugs be so much…

Ok, so here’s the sitch:

Last night, JW asked me if I can send her to the bus station on Thursday.  At first I told her I can but I will have to confirm with her later.  But later, I realized that I had tuition on that day.  But I didn’t tell her straight away coz it was quite late at night.

Then this morning, she called and asked me what I’m doing.  I ma told her I was reading newspaper lo.  Then I told her I can’t make it on Thursday coz I had tuition.  Then she asked me why am I so bz nowadays… I ma told her I wanna do lab lo… Den she ask me

"Your lab not finished di meh?"

"I’m just helping the lab tech ma"

Silence…

I asked, "Anything?"

"Nothing…"  Hung up.

Then a few minutes later, she sent an sms.  She sent three actually.  I won’t say what she said.  But the conclusion is she thought I made up lies of being bz but actually wanted to avoid her.  She said she actually wanted to give me something and talk to me…

Anyway, she asked me not to reply in all three of her sms-es.  So I didn’t.  Well, even if she didn’t ask me I wouldn’t have.  Coz she’s so angry there’s no point explaining that I was really busy.  I really had class on Thursdays, if she’d only cared to remember. And afterall, if I really wanted to avoid contact, I wouldn’t have picked up the call at the first place, right?

And I DO know that she will wanna give me something - my super overdue birthday present.  But you know what, I don’t want it anymore.  From that day when she told me she didn’t pack it with her when she come to KL… She said she had too many things to take, so she didn’t pack it.  That just shows how much she cares right?  If I’m even worth just a little in her heart, she wouldn’t have not packed it… And she wouldn’t even have not told me she got it until I asked.

I actually wanted to wait for her anger to subside a little before I explain to her that I’m not making up lies.  But after awhile, I realize, since I’ve already given up, I don’t think I should explain.  I’d rather she hate me and get over it soon.  I’ve pulled myself up and out from it, I don’t wanna step back into it again.  I’ve been hurt twice by the same person… Hurt real HARD.

Stan was right.  I should have known her already.  Haih… But I just wonder, if I do it this way, would I be a bad person?  Coz if this way, maybe we might not be able to even be friends…

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