恢复单身的身份已经有一个星期多了。。。 其实说真的，如果你问我到底发生什么是的话，我也不能回答你。 是因为我自己也不是很清楚。。。
有时候真的是觉得很灰心。 我会不断地问自己，为什么全心全意对一个人。。。 换来的结果竟然会是这样子。一直以来的付出其实只是为了要对方觉得开心。 只是想要他觉得感动和幸福。 可是到头来才发现到原来得到的只是辛苦和压力。。。
到底是我做错了还是我根本不懂怎么去爱一个人？ 如果真的爱一个人应该要怎样做才可以让对方觉得开心呢？
是她铁石心肠。。。 还是我自己失败到连自己最深爱的人也留不住？
Is it my problem? Or is it somebody else? Or maybe it’s just the both of us… Or who knows? It can be the whole world has eaten crap for breakfast!
I just don’t get it. Some people are just so blardy stuck up that they think that they can go about criticizing other people like a smart ass.
Sigh… probably, I’m like that too. But then again, I won’t wanna insult anyone… unlike someone. Blardy stuck up!
Someone once told me, he wouldn’t know if I will still know him (as in still treat him as a friend) two years later. The way he put, he was not trying to say that two years later we will move on and stop contacting each other. It’s more like I care too much about myself that I will just stop being friends with him should anything happen.
Evidently I was offended. I still remember my reaction at that time was stopping at the middle of the road and kick him out of the car. I don’t know why I did that coz it’s really extreme and it only drove the point of what he had said. Still, that’s what I did and at first I had regretted it.
But at this very moment, not anymore. Because he deserved it. I don’t know what the crap is the matter with this guy and I don’t wanna know. Even if I’m wrong, tell it straight at my face. Solve it like a guy. If we don’t agree what’s the worst that’s gonna happen? It’s not like I’m gonna punch you at the face. I just can’t tolerate this back stabbing. Dare to criticize but not dare to say it in front of me?
Totally understood if this is the work of a girl. But a guy? That’s down right sissy to me. But who cares it’s not like I’m gonna see him for long. Either way, whenever he sees me he just pretends that I’m a stranger. So who cares? He can go fuck himself for all I care.
Forgive the profinities. Don’t worry, I’m still cool. I won’t get pissed at someone who’s not even worth the nanosecond of my life.
I actually wanna blog about Perhentian. But… The first thing I saw when I open my mailbox for the first time after so many days was an email from Ms Tan.
"Please submit your literature review by 10 September 07 (Monday). This is the final deadline. Any delays will be penalised."
Wakao! I haven’t started at all! AT ALL! And it’s just about one week left. Where the hell can I vomit out 30+ pages of stuff for her?! I dowan to do la! I wanna play some more! About 6 days left. No matter what I have to squeeze out five pages per day… Oh god! Somebody please help!
Haih. What the hell am I complaining? It’s my fault really. I’ve been procrastinating for so long. Far too too long! Sigh… Ok. No more mood to do anything di. As my last effort of procrastination and protest against the cruelty of my supervisor, I shall refrain from working tonight! p(-_-)q
Damn! No mood di…
And so with an sms, she left for Singapore. In another 2 or 3 hours, I’ll be leaving for Perhentian too. Haha. It does seem like one of those scenes in a typical Taiwan Idol Drama (偶像据)
I never plan to online tonight, but oh crap! Who plans about these kinda stuff nowadays? I guess from today till next tuesday, earliest, I am on my own.
Haha. I’m so sorry. I don’t mean to be so gloomy. I mean, of course I am happy for her coz after so many difficult, sleepless and exhausting days at uni, she’s finally got the chance to enjoy a few days of peace of mind including without my bugging her everyday. LOL.
But then… on the other hand… Haha. You should have guessed what I’m trying to say, so I shall just cut the crap.
Anyways, as I was saying, I’m going to leave for Perhentian soon. Which means a few days with no Internet and chatting. If there’s anything, just beep my mobile k?
Few hours left before I board the bus and I still have no idea why I’d ever sign up for the trip. It’s not like I’m going with friends. I’m going with a group of strangers who also happened to be uncles and aunties working at my dad’s office. The youngest that is present is already in her late 20s. And besides being the baby of the group, I’m also going to be the boss’s son. Crap! I’m feeling so out of clique. WHY the bloody hell did I sign up? Well, it was probably because I wanna spend some time with my dad…
(”’-.-)
What a lame excuse…
But still, I shall update with photos at the beach. Who knows I might catch some really hot chicks on camera… or in my case now, hot fishes…
Yes, yes… I know it’s damn lame. Haha. Wish me bon voyage! And I shall wish her the same ;P
Long time no blog!
Sigh… there’s nothing to blog about actually. It’s just that I’m bored stiff. And not to mention the fact that I’ve been pooping for two days already and don’t have the energy to do anything else except to sit down and blog. After all, it’s been a long time since my last entry.
I’m feeling like shit now. Like an old man… My stomach hurts, my back aches and my head is spinning like a top. It’s amazing that I’m still sitting upright and not lying down. Plus, I’m preparing for a trip to Perhentian tomorrow. God knows why I agreed to going at the first place.
Sigh… But then again, it’s not a bad thing too. At least it can occupy my time while she goes to Singapore - which means almost a week of no meeting, no calls and no sms. I’m fine with the no meeting part coz we don’t really meet each other for months previously. And I think I can get use to the no calls part too coz when we’re really busy, we don’t talk on the phone. But the no sms… Sigh… Guess I’ll have to learn to adapt. Good thing I’m quite highly adaptive to situations… Ahem… Haha.
Crap! I’ve gotta go poop again. I’ll blog next time. Ciao!
Haha… The title reminds me of the song: It’s the final countdown!!!
ANYWAYSSSS….
One more paper to go and I’m finally free of university life. Don’t even know whether to be happy or sad about it.
Still remember the first time I stepped into UCSI during orientation, I was still wondering, why the hell did I chose this place to study? I mean, I’ve come from a private school and I’ve studied in Taylors for Pre-U. You would have expected me to be the Monash type of students.
But I defied all expectations - even my own and chose UCSI. I was still wondering whether I’ve made the right choice even when I was well into my first year. At that time I’ve seen many friends leaving for other universities like UTAR and Monash and was wondering if I should follow them too.
But time passed so fast and before I knew it I’m already sitting for the finals of finals and will be graduating soon. Time passed too fast. I’m only 21 and I’ve completed my degree. If I’m lucky, I’m even gonna get an honours degree.
Sigh… Although I admit I do have my doubts about the U previously, it’s undeniable that I feel heavy hearted to leave now. I mean, come on la. I’ve been here for 3 years. I’ve seen it grow from a super new campus with only 1 academic block of 3 floors to what it is now - a 5-floor academic block and a high tech lab that’s become my almost second home.
And not to mention the friends… Haih…
Haha. Enough of reminiscence.
So, I was sitting for my Enzyme Tech paper yesterday right, and I’ve forgotten to bring my calculator!!! I never even in the slightest corner of my mind thought that I’d need one. I kept expecting it to be an essay paper. And then suddenly there was this plot-a-linear-graph question. And what’s more? I’ve to invert all the figures in the table that they gave. It’s like calculating 1/3.33, 1/0.33, 1/0.11…
So what am I to do without a calculator? I raised up my hand to ask for one but bitchy Roseline just told me NO! And I said "But I NEED a calculator. I can’t do my question without one!"
You know what she said? "Next time remember to bring la. Can’t help you now"… and she gave me the serves-you-right look. MFG! And they say the lecturers are here to help you pass your exams.
But anyway, being the resourceful me that I’ve always been (Che-wah! haha) I showed her I’m not completely useless without a calculator. So I grabbed the rough paper and started doing my bentuk lazim - something that I’ve not used since I could use calculators in high school. And lo and behold, I could still finish the 3 hour paper in 2 and a half hours.
Almost towards the end of the paper, I saw Roseline talking to Dr. Hon. Haha… you should have seen the look at Dr Hon’s face. She was like "Shit! My student’s gonna fail my paper because my colleague couldn’t care less!"
So she took Surain’s calculator and gave it to me. But I just showed her my rough paper of bentuk lazims and smiled… Haha. Dear Dr Hon, your student ain’t that useless k?
And then she called me and seven others to her office after the exam and said we’re chosen to participate in some quiz in UM for three days.
Actually, not to say I’m totally not interested… but I’ve gotta study the whole biochemistry text book in two weeks. That’s too much! Anyway, I still feel like going coz it’s been ages since I’ve taken part in something like that. The previous time was in high school. And I would wanna see how life’s like in a local university hostel so that I can better understand how JW lives in her hostel.
But undeniably, I would have said yes immediately if the venue was in UPM instead of UM. Haha. But oh well. Who cares right? Haha. I’ve gotta tell them by today if I were to reject… But… I guess I won’t la. It’s kinda interesting too. Who knows I might win the big prize of 25k? Lol. But I’m sure the uni’s gonna take all the money and give me the mock cheque. That’s what SSG used to do right? Lol.
K, gtg study for the final paper of my university life. BIOPROCESS ENG, here I come!
p(>.<)q
今天我无聊的打了电话给玲，就听到一个好废的冷笑话想跟大家分享。。。
Part 1:
有一天，玲问东：雪柜上的是南瓜吗？
东看都不看就说：不，那是青瓜
过后东就突然之间转个头来问玲：南瓜的旁边是什么？
玲想了一下然后就回答：我不知道嘞
然后东就说：冬瓜啊！
很冷哦！
Part 2:
东又问：那冬瓜的上面是什么？
玲又想了一下然后放弃地对他说：我不知道。
东就说：西瓜啦！
冷死了！
Part 3:
接下来，很废的东有再问：冬瓜的儿子又叫什么？
玲就知道只有是一个很废的问题， 就懒得去猜。
东就说：就是小冬瓜！
开始看到马来西亚下雪了吗？
Part 4:
我听到这里就到我问玲：那如果你看到8个冬瓜在一起聊天，那又是什么呢？
猜到很累的玲就一点都不想地问我：是什么？
我就说：是八卦！
哇！终于冷到结冰了！
WOO HOO!!!
Nothing much I wanna blog about tonight. Just wanna brag. LOL. It’s not expensive and it’s not cool. But at least it’s my very own CD player in MY car.
I apologize for not taking pictures of it despite my 1Gig memory space in my phone. I don’t even know why I need so much space. But it was cheap ok? It was once sold at 200+. And now it’s sold at 119 at retail. But I got it for 90 bux at PC fair.
YES I KNOW!!!Incredibly irresistable right? Haha. Syok sendiri.
Anyway, ya, about the pictures. I’ll take them soon. But I’m sure people who I normally drive around should notice it. It’s so obvious ok? If you hadn’t notice, I’m gonna bring you to the optometrist.
OK! Cool. So now I’ve gotta go look for songs for me to burn and feed into my CD player. This is so exciting! Haha. I shall try to blog again soon. ;P
WOO HOO!!!!!
I almost fell of my chair just now and almost yelled out! Why? Because I accidentally downloaded a song that I’ve given up searching for for years. It’s the chinese version of "I want to spend my lifetime loving you" by Marc Anthony. Well, the English version is by Marc Anthony but the Chinese version is by Wang Li Hong and Ke Yi Min.
It really brings back memories doesn’t it? Those who had went to SAM with me oughta know. Oh, god! I miss G11 suddenly. CHANDRIKA!!! and Mars, Michelle, Jess, YJ, Debbie, Chee Kang, Venus, Sin Cherng and even Alvin… Haha… Don’t groan!
Really missed the times we used to hang out. I thought after almost three years, I would have moved on. But just listening to the song brings back memories. Wish we can hang out again like we used to. I really should get everyone together. LOL. You guys rock!
Still remember Jess once said that Chandrika and I practised it so much that I wanna vomit when I hear it again. Haha. Not anymore. Miss you, girl! And everyone else.
I WANNA SPEND MY LIFETIME LOVING YOU…
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
其实如果不是昨天晚上的话我也不知道原来只几天自己真的是累透了。 可能就是压力太大了吧。。。 还是自己太忙了， 连疲倦也察觉不到。。。 昨天晚上本来不想那么早睡的，可是真的一到了12点就突然间觉得有点晕的感觉。 真的是支持不住了。 哈哈！真是没用。
其实虽然很忙也很累，可是也过得蛮开心的。 因为在我最忙和最累的时候会感觉到有个人在我身边一直在鼓励我。 所以那天星期四晚上虽然是太累了，可是能够跟她在一起也觉得很幸福。
可是真么说呢？我觉得两个人在一起相处真的要互相体谅和信任对方。 在这几天好像不断地听到很多失恋的故事。 其中有一个朋友因为贪玩， 所以就叫朋友去试探一下自己的男朋友是否是对自己不忠。 结果没想到自己很信任的男友却对自己的朋友说出 “我没有女朋友”这几个字。
也有另外一个朋友就是因为和几个所谓“以貌取人”的男生交往过所以从此对男生失望了。
其实说真的，要好好的保存一段关系真的是不容易。尤其是在感情这一方面。 我也不可以担保我自己的感情处理得很好。 说真的关于她的有些事情我真的是有一点看不习惯。 I mean, 一些东西有时候看了心里会觉得有点不舒服。 可是到最后还是会觉得这些竟然是她喜欢做的东西我就应该要尊重和信任她。反正有些事情发生了就是发生了。 都已经无所避免的。
哈哈！其实我也不懂自己想要说什么的。 只是这几天那么忙都没有时间去写blog。 难得今天得空手指又开痒起来了。嘻嘻！好啦。我要去读书了。 星期三要考试了。 所以要好好的加油！谢谢你耐心的在这里听我说废话。
哈哈！
拜拜！
